I’ll be 28 years old come August. I’m really getting up there in age. The problem with this is, I never really had a REAL direction that I wanted my life to go in. I was taught, go to high school, go to college, get a job. I did all of that and I still felt unfulfilled, I never really felt like I fit in anywhere. I’m Bahamian, born and bred. However, I have no rhythm, I’m not the most outgoing person, I’m not loud and boisterous. I’m pretty meek and mild, I like to party, but more of a wall flower kind of party person. I’m not particularly good at any one thing, but I’m also not skilled enough in a wide variety of things either. It’s kind of hard to find things I naturally get excited about. So I’ve always had a a huge dilemma in my life. I’ve always envied people who seem to just fit into a groove in life and are really confident in their abilities.
This break has been really good for me to address this type of thing in my life. I’ve been able to really sit down and ask myself what I specifically want out of my life, pertaining o goals, people, and even myself. I’ve had time in the past, but I never took my dad’s advice and really appreciated it. I’ve chosen not to rush back to work, because I really want to be specific with my life. I want to be intentional about my goals, my words, my actions, my love, my spirituality/prayers. I want everything in my life to serve a higher purpose than myself. This has come from taking the time with God, and also realizing that the reason people feel so unfulfilled a lot of times is because they don’t have a higher purpose than themselves. Of course I still would like the finer things in life; a nice place to live, a nice car, to travel, to dine well, etc. However, we have to learn to be okay with where God has us, even if our life doesn’t turn out the way we think it should. One of the greatest lessons my friends and family has taught me was that it really doesn’t matter the hand that you are dealt, but it’s the way you choose to play it.